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released 09 March 2010

Produced by Jamin Gilbert for Ishlab Music and Emanuel Ayvas.
Recorded and edited by Jamin Gilbert and Emanuel Ayvas at Ishlab Music (Brooklyn, NY).

Assistant Engineers – Joseph Rivas and Mark Sanders

Executive Produced by Jamin Gilbert

Mixed by Patrick Dillett at Kampo Stuios

Mix Assistants: Jonathan Altschuler, Yuki Takahanshi, Emanuel Ayvas and Jamin Gilbert

Mastered by Doug Van Sloun at Focus Mastering

Photographs by Heidi Greenwood

Artwork by Les Barbire

Thanks to Jerel Fonzetti, Jen Wanamaker, Les Barbire, Matt Casella, Chris Caliendo, Melissa Ayvas, Catherine Cheng, Danny Richards, All of our family and friends and all of our fans

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Track Name: The Introduction
(Instrumental)
Track Name: Guatemala
Rising up from the ashes of a schoolboy, old enough to be working in the coal mines
Looking up as he watches as his childhood floats away.

To children selling food in Guatemala, el parece sucio al americano
but the gringos concerned, only if the boy has washed his hands. 

Don't forget about the people who are dying in Somolia, skies of fire raining over Persia
Seems as if the wealthy have forgotten we're all the same.
As they dye their hair drinking six dollar coffee,
healthy and alive but fucking drugged up, coughing,
underneath, the puppets swing, the strings attached to hands of thieves.

Wake up you people, the world it is changing, step out of your bubble of  comfortable ignorance.
The church it has taught us, to fear one another, to hate what is different, yea to silence and smother,
The terror of difference, in all of those thoughts faces colors.
But I can only just imagine, if the truth became the fashion
Then one at a time each mind once frozen in greed
could lead the way to change the way we live.
Track Name: Ariel and the River
Sleep in your homes all alone, is it what you wanted
To dream that you've found control
of yourself and everyone else, cause you know
that you can have all that you want just as long as you give them a piece of it.

No don't go thinking that you own all that stuff that you hold so dear to you
Cause they can take it if they want it and you'll be left with nothing but to listen to the world,
yea it's all there in between
we are only what they want us to be.
And open up your eyes, take a look at what you see
we are only what they want us to be

Those were pearls that were her eyes
with diamond fingers, emerald thighs,
and golden calves that reach so high
her silk blonde hair was in the sky.
With people bowing in the streets
all out there working underneath
to power up electric feet
that stood each swallowing the river there

that ran between her legs
and onward up into her head.
For years they'd built their world around her
till the river dried up dead
and then she spit out what was left of it
splashing out into the streets
the mighty wave that they'd created
crashing dancing over everything and

out into the world until there's nothing left that's free
and we are only what they wants us to be.
And open up your eyes, take a look at what you see,
we are only what they want us to be.

Well it might be me, maybe this is meant to be
in a world where nothing's determined anyway.
But I like Albert can't see
how something as simple as you and me
can just decide what they're provided with is all there is to be.

But what if there's no such thing as a good thing or a bad thing?
Yea and what if everything is the same as everything?
Then who's to care when there's nobody there
as we all join together now to to see?

That we are only what they want us to be.
We are only what they want us to be.
We are only what they want us to be.
We are only what they want us to be.
Track Name: Jimme's Song (Full Band Version)
Jimme takes his time as he washes his eyes
and then makes his bed up and then heads for the outside.
And it doesn't make a difference every once and a while
if you've got nothing to do but sit around and think about
how nothing he could do could ever feel good

But he knows you gotta get a job if you're looking to move on
Like everybody else but it's the same thing
Always the same dream keeping him from moving, saying

I don't want to do nothin but be in a rock band
I don't want to get a job, I don't wanto be a man
I don't want to do nothin but be in a rock band
I don't want to do nothing at all
I don't want to do nothing at all

But then the bills pour in and he fakes it like to swim,
but he still don't go anywhere.
Until he gets too weak, they got him swimming in his sleep
And then he needs grab something to get some air. 
And so he pulls a job down at the landfill,
and he don't mind the working outside looking out on the turnpike.
But the days fly by and the fire in his side tells him he'll never be right until the day that he dies, saying

I don't want to do nothin but be in a rock band
I don't want to get a job, I don't wanto be a man
I don't want to do nothin but be in a rock band
I don't want to do nothing at all
I don't want to do nothing at all

All his words fall down through the cracks in between,
and spread like sunlight down on the world underneath.
But up here they fall to nowhere they're just a feeling he needs,
as he drives through the weeds,
and through the swamps and through the trees,

As he's talking like he's holding a gun in his hand,
but there aint nobody there, it's just him waving his hands.
And then he drives on to his guy at the van to get his
cup of coffee with three sugars for two dollars.
And back to work another day another hour,
he gets older by the minute but there's nobody around him who can understand, looking at a young man feeling like no one ever notices,
They live the same day over and over

No, I don't want to do nothin but be in a rock band
I don't want to get a job, I don't wanto be a man
I don't want to do nothin but be in a rock band
I don't want to do nothing at all
I don't want to do nothing at all
Track Name: Duckies
(Instrumental)
Track Name: Free Life
I know you'd go outside just to see some sunlight
or you'd maybe take an air plane or a train ride
to the other side of the country
just to feel like you're alive again
back like how it used to be

Cause I know some loose lived and
free minds out there who know better
than to waste time living the straight life
or to straight dive off the
mountainside like all the others
It's a free life if you live it
why not give it a try

You boy with your free style
you know I wish I could be so loose and
do whatever I want and it's the
same complaint I keep on hearing
over and over from everybody
and my only reply's
it's a free life if you live it
why not give it a try
yea it's a free life if you live it
why not give it a try

it's a free life if you live it
why not give it a try
Track Name: Dear Friend
Walking along, singing a tune for all the people passing by me.
Do do do do do do do do do do do
Somebody stares, smiles like a bear, tells me how lovely it's been lately.
And then much to my surprise, I was smiling,
In the most peculiar way.
Feeling happy.  I'm alive and well today.
Something I never thought I'd say.

For the moment I'll believe, that the people in the scenes
reading trendy magazines are the future I've been
dreaming of
A generation of those who don't seek comfort but the good of all things.
Don't waiste your anger on your dads, or getting beat up after class.
Cause that's life don't brand it bad, or you'll end up just like everyone who's taught you to hate yourself, and your life.

Well i'll be changing lives. 
Everyday for the rest of my life.
But the first one needs to be mine.
Yea the first to change is your own mind.

Walking along, singing a tune for all the people passing by me.
Do do do do do do do do do do do
Somebody stares, smiles like a bear, tells me how lovely it's been lately.
And then much to my surprise, I was smiling,
In the most peculiar way.
Feeling happy.  I'm alive and well today.
Something I never thought I'd say.
Track Name: Yo, Jamin
(Instrumental)
Track Name: Trucker Lovesong
I'm too young understand what love can do to someone.
From the day I met you I've been crazy,
I can't seem to sleep
Cause I want to be everywhere that you go
I want to love you all the way.

But it seems that fate wants me to wait around for no reason, but to make me worry,
like to show the hungry food
just to take it away from them
so that they can know what they could have had
and never trust a thing again. 

Do you want to run away to a lake of Michigan
We'll build a boat with our own bare hands.
And set off for another sand and start a family
We'll raise our kids far away from the madness of
Material overstimulation or I was thinking,
of a way we could dodge the bullet of the modern mindset,
and buy an 18 wheel truck with a trailer
to ride the highway to work for a few years.
Just you and me and the road and the sun
and the back of our cab, we can all be a family.
A few years of talking and smiling and feeling alive.
We can camp at the roadside, or sleep in our cab
and get away from the nonsense. 
Oh I know it sounds crazy but I think that might be.
Well the very thing that love is to me.

Cause we'll take all of the money that we've saved from the road
and move to the country or a place by the ocean
and leave all the things that almost got us to quit this behind. 
Track Name: Balcony
Out on the balcony she went for my hand
and kissed me when no one was looking.
And there in a daydream, I failed to admit
but I felt you and wanted you next to me.
So she stormed through the doorway, and sat on the stairs
and I left you there, alone.

And you cried, cause you loved him.
Thought you'd die, all alone on the stairs.
But where was I, when you needed me there?

What the hell am I doing, and what the hell do you care.
There's no reason for living, when you've got nobody there.
So just pour me another.
Yea put that drink in my hand.
Cause I've destroyed the only love I've ever had.

Take me or leave me, the love I've avoided,
is the only thing, that I've come to live for.
So hold me adore what we've missed to explore
the things around us and the world in between.
Oh well I need you so call me, don't leave me here guessing
cause I don't want to lose you, like I did before.
Was it time that you needed, to find you're mind there an ocean away
well I was blind.
Now you're calling to say, that there's no one to blame.

What the hell am I doing, and what the hell do you care.
There's no reason for living, when you've got nobody there.
So no more running in circles, no no more running away.
Cause love it always seems a little bit harder
when you're over there. 
Track Name: Whatever You Do
I want to be happy, but all my smiling memories are you and your eyes.
And they make me wanto get up and run,
like the farther I'm away from you the better off I'll be.

Where I can erase you and feel like I used to.
Oh where did that happy little boy with the afro go?
They say he gave this girl too much,
that when she left he forgot how to love.

You think that you know me.
Don't act like you do.
You wanto be happy.
I'm saying you could.
You think that you know me.
Don't act like it's you who's in control when it's you who's losing it.

Whatever you do, don't make the same mistake
don't throw your heart away without it you can only lose.
Whatever you do, don't ruin everything
if you wanto be happy.

I just had this nightmare, I was out of control
they had me tied up with my face against the ground
and there was nothing I could do.
And in that moment, well my mind it turned to you
and to a time when I was happy
like my thoughts could somehow change what was the truth. 
And lift me from my shackles, back to you in my bed lying awake just talking.
But when my mind breaks through
and when I turn to reach for you to tell you all about what happened there
and nobody's next to me and I rub my eyes
like i'm surprised by what I know to be the truth.

Whatever you do, don't make the same mistake
don't throw your heart away without it you can only lose.
Whatever you do, don't ruin everything
if you wanto be happy.
Track Name: The Raimin
Which one of us chase will the monsters away
and bring back the things that we wanted and say
that it'll all come back someday?

When the mountains will have crumbled to the streets.
And the people and the houses will be buried underneath,
back to how it used to be.
Everything can be simple and everyone can be free

And which one of us will take the righteous away
and paint the blood on their doorway to keep the darkness at bay
so they'll be safely locked inside
of their homes when it all comes down from on high
they'll be lifted up into the sky.

And the righteous will say, I'll go on praying for the day of all days.
We'll be saved from the rain, the thunder and fire that'll wipe us away.
But in the meantime they'll hide as they wish for the end
preaching bring on my rapture and kill all of my friends
like destruction is the answer, cause that's what god said.
To employ against progress, by turning their heads.
While the rest of us, are trying to get through it.

So go ahead and pack your things,
light your candles and close yourselves in.
And I'll be out here watching,
With everyone else. 
Track Name: Same Way
She owns my heart but I won't know, until i'm gone like an idea,
something so real it gets you laughing and just
leaves you standing there alone
saying the work'll change and soon I'll say
and through the smile she says she'll be here
but you know that it aint that easy
yea you know you can't do what you're saying
no it will all remain and always be the same way.

So he wakes up at six in the morning
brushes his teeth and leaves
to drive himself to san francisco
thinking how he can't handle all these feelings that she brings
and how it's worse still when you're lonely
and can't feel anything
but how you can't seem to be happy
unless you're making some poor girl feel the same
but I don't want to be that way
so if you've gotta leave me babe
I won't say anything

Now that the winter's almost over
maybe I'll go home back to brooklyn
to see some friends there in the springtime
and call you up to say i'm home
let me come and bring you flowers, cook you dinner and tell you stories
but she'll say no can't you see what you're doing
how can you make me have to go through that again
just cause you're here now don't mean that you've changed
because you always will remain
and always will be the same way.
Track Name: Simple Eyes
Male:
Simple eyes, no not mine,
but imagine the difference
of a child's life of nothing but dreaming.
All the while, I sit hoping to feel that again
after all I was once there before.
So he smiles at the girls
plucks one out like a flower
thinking maybe I've found something here.

But the night goes away and the girl aforementioned
she is pensive and defensive, asking questions
how many girls have you had in that loft up there

Female:
Now I don't mean to step across the line
but at the same time, I need to know if you'll be on my side
and do you know what it means for me to sleep up in your bed
each time hoping this is something
but it seems to you instead
to be no different from a meal you eat
but this one isn't dead, my lonely friend
I can't keep doing this,
I'm sorry but this has to be the end.

Male:
How can you think so hard and have so many rules
when life is nothing but a puzzle board
a picture that we move within, Listen
We're just the pieces of the world
to push together boys and girls
and you know that if you fit then you can stick together

Female:
But if you don't and try to push to hard
You just might bend the edge apart
and you'll never fit with anyone

Duet:
Be damaged forever, never to be the same
as your freedom turns to loneliness, saying it
wasn't supposed to be this way.
Track Name: Song For a Girl
Tonight, I'm gonna write you a song
and it'll be about the pain, that you make me feel.
And then from there, I'm gonna find me a girl
and I'll play it for her, so she likes me.
Just like, how I won you over, 3 years ago.
Just like, every girl I've ever known.

Soft touches, smiling and then a few years pass by
Blinded by happiness.
And then the end, and we split without speaking.
There off with ourselves, to be alone again.
And I'll go running off to the girl I knew before you. 
But she'll be married with kids and a cute little house
and a life, that you wish you had

Well life, it's so unfair
It seems like it only wants to work out for the people who don't care
and love, it's got me vexed
I swear it off like i don't need it but I can't stop running after it.

Where to now lover, you shouldn't trust me
I think i've warned you ever since the day we started this thing
This fear of emptiness we're desperately reaching out for love
so much that we'd settle for something or someone who
can't be what we want them to and
Can't feel, how you need them to
can't you see that you're only with me because you don't
Want to feel lonely

Well life, it's so unfair
It seems like it only wants to work out for the people who don't care
and love, it's got me vexed
I swear it off like i don't need it but I can't stop running after it.
Track Name: The Finale
Someone save me from going under,
I'm too deep in my head.
Because I can't tell what's real
from what's me thinking thoughts instead,
I'll dream like dreaming is no different
from a conversation
with the real live you to reply
from the outside of my head.
But I know better now than to make that mistake,
no, I won't do that again, Ohh no no no

Act like you do when there's nobody there
and when there's people around you watch them stare and stare and stare.
But why are we so wrapped up in this futile fight between
the world as it there lies and how we decide that it should be,
When science tells us that what surrounds us
will never be, what you end up seeing. 

You know we're trapped up in our heads there all alone
No you can't touch a thing there's too much space between it all.
Why not act like everyone else and pretend that you've got control...
Because you know they'll never know.
Track Name: Look Ma, The Walls Are Moving
(Instrumental)
Track Name: Razzmatazz
It's a beehive!